The World as I see It

The moment of truth arrived this week. I got the results of my application package submitted to Studies In Sweden months back. Well its been two-three days now and I am kind of over the disappointment of not getting admitted to the course that I thought I was going to get. But it was all my own fault, I had myself put that course on 5th choice. I was instead offered admission in the 2nd choice program in which my merit ranking wasnt as good as the 5th chice one but still I got admission. I must thank the almighty here because among thousands of applicants from all over the world he made me one of the lucky few. So as the things stand, I am supposed to join Master of Science in Software Engineering program at BTH – Blekinge Institute of Technology from september 01 2008. With myself also on the waiting list for KTH- Royal institute of Technology’s (KISTA) maters program on Engineering and Managment of Information Systems, life could not have felt more blessed. Million dollar question is am I going to get and subsequently avail the chance to be there come this autumn.

I need to consider alot of things; is it worth it to stress my parents financially for all this, are these programs good enough to ensure a prosperous career considering the immaturity in the pakistani software and IT industry, will it be ok for me to work and settle in europe after the studies, do my parents need me here with them especially that I am their only son.

All of a sudden its a tough decission to make. I am feeling just as undecided as a poor woman would feel when proposed by a rich and complete stranger I know its a stupid example to mention but you get the idea.

I have been talking to a couple of my seniors who are already studying there; raza bhai and ali hasnain bhai and they have been very kind and helpful. May the blessings of the lord be with them.

Elsewhere, I have an interview call for scholarship for Italy and along with all other documents I need a research proposal. I need to work on it in the next few days. I talked to a beloved friend in Philippines after 3 months and it was really really nice.

I have to say have been careless in studies in all my life and for such a student its the generosity of God to hand such opurtunities. He sure is Almighty.

These lines go to my beloved god…

When no-one else can understand me
When everything I do is wrong
You give me love and consolation
You give me hope to carry on

And youre always there to lend a hand
In everything I do
Thats the wonder
The wonder of you

And when you smile the world is brighter
You touch my hand and Im a king
Your kiss to me is worth a fortune
Your love for me is everything

Ill guess Ill never know the reason why
You love me like you do
Thats the wonder
The wonder of you

It was the last day of the league season, one filled with drama, joy, disappointments, an act of Houdini and a crazy scoreline. A dedicated post about all of it is next…

Till then…